not bad for a beginner...

First off, the airshow was fuckin' awesome!!! everyone should go, it's free too dammit...this is NOT about George Dubya, and this is NOT about Saddam...this is about the men and women in the armed forces wanting to put on a show for everyone to see...they are giving everyone a free performance...fuckin' awesome...i formally invite EVERYONE to go see it...it was strange when i saw all the practice shows this morning (i didn't want to stick around for the huge crowd)...it's like, i was watching all this beauty, all these phenominal perfomers...and all i could think was that i totally want to share this experience with everyone out there...did i mention it's free???once i got home, i took a nap, headache from hell caused by dehydration...got a phone call from the eye doc who told me my contacts were in...everyone was cool until i mentioned that i have never worn contacts before...only glasses...so after some lessons and a bit of difficulty, i have a trial pair to practice for the good ones i have...i have no insurance, so those cost me close to 200 bones...i'd rather tear up the trial pair...so yeah, she was supposed to give me a set of blue eyes, to distinguish where the contact is, but she only had one, so i got a green one two...she didn't think i'd be ok with it...harder than i thought...had to leave Sabbat rather early because my eyes started drying up and i didn't bring my drops...what a relief it is to take them off, hehe...oh well, i won't have to worry about contacts in the future...i guess i'll just look like a geek with my glasses...i just don't think it suits me...back in the day my friends in the corps told me that i looked good in them, i dunno...i'll have to see...oh yeah, i did good today...only one drink at the club...didn't drink and drive home either...

da plane, da plane!!!

so yeah, i'm up this early to go to the air show and get a good parking spot at the barracks...yeah, i cheat, hehe...strange how you sometimes take things for granted...out of the four years i spent at Miramar, i only went to one show...and after having 9/11 cancel one show, and traffic making me miss another...i want to make it out to this one...you don't miss things until they are gone...hopefully i'll be back early...i don't really want to stick around long...the sun really drains me...hmm, i wonder if they'll let me bring a camera...note to self...remember to bring ear plugs...

past and present...

i met up with a certain someone this evening...even though she hurt me in the past, i couldn't help but remember the good times we had...i remembered how she made me smile and feel good about myself...then as always, i remember the pain...i remember how hurt i was that evening she betrayed me...and how she along with her "partner" laughed at me...i know that people change every day...and even at times, it only take a few moments for someone to be chastised...but i am still uncertain about her...all i could do this evening was contemplate my future...at least once a year, i am given a new path in life, and whether or not i take it is entirely up to me...this new path leads to fame and fortune, the hard part is getting there...i am very capable of doing such things...but again, i have a problem...a very big problem...alcohol...again, i have embraced the substance...and again i have fallen into it's grasp...i have friends that are willing to help me get through that road...but i have to give up a lot of things...one of them being that dreaded substance...i am a slave to alcohol...it is my only release from the constant pain i feel...i need to train harder...that's what they expect of me...they want me to be the best, and if i train, i will be...i am very capable of that goal...i have to get through this...

mixed countries...

alrighty, i've got England and Portugal...anyone want to trade for Spain?...c'mon...someone help out this Spic who looks like a Mex and acts like a Gring and talks like a Jap...

bad timing, and bad eyesight...

so it's an hour past midnight, ready to go to bed...the last thing i want to deal with is a couple of bills in my face and being asked to write out a check for each of them....uhm, how about no? not without my black book, and not while i'm tired...not that i can't pay my part or anything, i handle money matters during the day when i can get into my "corporate" mood...money matters aside, now to my eyesight...well, i had my first appointment with the eye doctor in over a decade or so...maybe less...long ago i wore glasses, but later on i managed to get Uncle Sam to hook me up with some experimental treatment to correct my eyesight...i won't go into detail, but it involved being wide awake with my eyes forced open like the dude from Clockwork Orange...not painful, but VERY strange...i came out with even better vision than before, and of course, a few minor side effects, but it was worth it...ask me about it sometime...anyway, i'm going to end up needing glasses again...i've been suspecting as much...the majority of people in this world are right-handed...one such right-hander introduced his atomic fist to my left eye...i was not only surprised that he didn't hit enough flesh to cause a black eye, but that i was still even conscious...this was a big strong steroid loving fuckin' A...i was temporarily blinded, and was fortunate to have others come in and hold him back...as much as i would have enjoyed a good fight, if there's nothing in it for me, i don't even want to bother putting the gloves on...the next morning i noticed that my left eye was a bit blurry...weeks went on and i was able to correct it on my own, but not enough to see like before...so i made an appointment with the eye doc...well, it seems that my left eye is still bad, but it will get better later on...in the meantime, i have glasses now...i don't want to wear them tho...

it's not monday...

strange...i feel like knocking over my fuckin' cubicle...huh? that wasn't my cubicle? oh...i don't even have a cubicle...oops...i need a vacation...at least it's payday tomorrow...

lack of caffeine...

so my projects aren't done...no biggie, i'm not the only one...didn't eat all day, xcept for a small tuna sandwich at around 10am ish...get home, took a short nap while the rice was cooking...fried it, added some ingredients...served, then i was about to serve myself something to drink, and whattayaknow?someone killed the fuckin' coke...well, at least i had a cup full...and who knows, maybe it was just me and didn't noticed...hmm, maybe i need to keep a secret stash or something...it was the cat...i fuckin' knew it, what a bitch, she should get her own soda...at least i still have sake...oh, and cha zou buns...those are good...time to get some coffee...and more soda...my fridge is empty...need to get cans, i guess i'll have to cross the picket line tonight...unless they actually go to sleep...

i'm flinching already...

something big is going to happen...i had a discussion with my friends last ngiht at Hooters...this time i am so not ready...maybe i was last time, but not now...and this time they may need me, and then again, like last time, they might not...their information usually comes in the form of rumors that later become true...i would know...or rather, Marines are always the first to go, and the last to know...that's a fact...i always just smile, grin, and grit my teeth every time some asshole says "Marines are expendable"...we wish we were, and people wonder why we kill everything we see...there i go again, saying "we"...well, once a Marine, always a Marine...had a couple of drinks with the Bud Light girl, and after three or so months, i was the first to finally know her real name...chatted briefly with my favorite Hooters girl, came home...pondered...do i even care about my school project anymore? i don't know, i'm lost...hmm, i'm an hour and 25 minutes late to work, and i don't seem to care...

too much power!!!...

alrighty...so a few of my instructors already forewarned me a year ago...yes, the time has come to build all kinds of cool shit...so i was working on my projects, looking stuff up back and forth since the text is a bunch of shit (i'm adding that to my list of complaints)...this quarter just hasn't been all that great...especially with instructors that don't admit when they're wrong...fuck 'em...so i've been working on this damn amplifier...and i decided to even buy some extra parts so see if it will work...i hook everything up, all is well...xcept one minor calculation...i had too much juice coming out and nothing to balance it out with...BAM!!!...and to think, maybe later on i will be building weapons of mass destruction, lol...fuck this, i'm going to Hooters...maybe even run into the Bud Light gal...she's cool...always gives me key chains tho...

the good, the bad, and the ugly...

The Good: no work todayThe Bad: i have school to go toThe Ugly: test todayfuck, i haven't studied like i was supposed to...i have two classes that are very much alike...one teaches about computer logic and devices, etc....and the other teaches...well, almost the same thing but puts and emphasis on amplifiers, and other things that go boom...time to study quickly...AND, OR, NOR, NAND, XNOR, XNAND...dammit...

blessings...

today i was chastised...completely unexpected, caught me off guard...i had a run in with someone who remembered me during the L.A. days...that was a totally different person...today i learned that human nature can change, and that it's never too late for forgiveness...years ago, i made this person's life a living hell...me, along with my father, made this family suffer...i honestly didn't know who was more afraid when i saw this person...i was recognized...it isn't often that i tie my hair back when i'm in the public eye...something i used to do...and it was something that allowed me to be recognized today...along with two distinguishing marks on my face...i hate what i've done, the damage that i've caused....and i'll admit that even now, i haven't fully cleaned up my act...i want to...and that's a start...today i was forgiven...but who knows wha the future holds, and if i will be forgiven again...i had a choice, in life, we all do...and i chose wrong...i'm sorry...