didn't work...

i still have lurkers, hate-mailers, and probably a certain "someone" still spying on me...FUCK OFF!!!!!!!

ooh, the sky...

wow, the sky is blue...cool...oh wait...damn, time to go to work...and i suppose school will go as scheduled tomorrow, lol...

words of wisdom from a friend...

one of my dearest friends from up north gave me some very good words of wisdom...times of crisis, are also times for making amends with enemies and forming an alliance with them...how so? well, he was telling me that his family has made a truce with a rival family and have combined their efforts to help out those in San Bernardino...both have mutual friends that need(ed) help and things went even more smoothly once they settled their differences...with that in mind...none of us know exactly when our number is up...time is usually against everyone...i have known many a person that has died with unfinished business, and without ever knowing who will attend their funeral...i am making a formal apology to anyone i have offended, and any i have wronged...and i know that none of them are reading this, but it's something...i have done some very fucked up things in my past...things that i don't remember doing because of amnesia, but they are very well documented, and i have seen both video and pictures of my acts...in the words of my friend "i would much rather die with at least one rose on my grave, than to have it spit upon"

can't say i didn't try...

went to the red cross, got redirected to a place close to la jolla...went to the orientation, only to find out that they were completely booked solid...which is a very good thing...this shows me that the people are willing to help each other here...unlike my days in L.A. where everyone just has that "if it ain't my shit, i'm not worried about it" attitude during the riots...i remember it took Edward James Olmos himself to pick up a broom and start cleaning L.A. my father and i applauded his efforts...i had to work today...apparently i really am concidered "essential personnel"...i was feeling very headachy, tired, and dehydrated...a couple of my coworkers had to evacuate...and because the team is so small, it hits close to home...i had to check up on both of them, they are ok and very fortunate to still have a home standing...for now at least, and hopefully for good...in the meantime, i continue my work as an unofficial class leader and keep my classmates informed...at first i thought i was suddenly a phone operator, until my leadership traits took over and directed traffic instead of dealing with all of them individually...

it's been my nature...

in the words of my classmate:"Cpl V, always the boy scout"i can't save the world, but i can at least do my part...

i'm standing by...

well, i'm still not sure if i have to go to work tomorrow...checked with a few of my Marine buddies, they're ok...a lot of personal belongings were salvaged and stored in the vaerious meeting rooms and classrooms...good...and it's good to know that they also have a place to stay...my mother was about to call me, but i beat her to the punch...things were ironed out, and nice to know that my step-father was the one who wanted to call me, but he didn't know my number.after a while my lungs started to burn a bit, my throat was scratchy...a call was made out to volunteers...i wish i could...if i was SURE that i didn't have to go to work, i would be the first one there...i've always done that sort of thing...i'll have to call my boss...you see, if i don't work, my coworkers can't work at all...they depend on me to complete the task...i support a team of five...so if i am unable to work, then five guys can't get paid...if i don't have to work, then i'm off to do my volunteer work...i've already donated blood...i can't donate until i've recovered from the last time they sucked me dry...oh well, i should do what i can to support my friends at least...

not that i wasn't expecting this...

doesn't surprise me at all that my friends in L.A. and beyond have checked up on me...whether that be by e-mail or a phone call...San Diego has obviously made the news big time, and even L.A. itself has it's problems in San Bernardino, but still, i am grateful for having such friends to check up on me like that...as for my biological family...and even my mother...not one word...for all they knew i could have been living in that area again...doesn't surprise me...